Sangha of Auspicious Companions

Three Medicines: One Physician’s Journey

Dr. Cynthia Li had done everything right. She spent a decade rebuilding her health from the inside out after conventional medicine found nothing wrong with her — no diagnosis, no treatment, just labs that read normal while her body fell apart. She documented every step, wrote the book, and then collapsed again on the final page. What broke open in that second undoing was something the first decade of disciplined healing couldn’t reach. Her journey moves through five distinct medicines: the county hospital beds and Doctors Without Borders clinics where she learned to see whole lives behind presenting complaints; the root-cause medicine she made herself a one-person clinical trial to find; the grief she had sealed in a shoebox since residency and finally burned at a ritual fire, waking the next morning lighter than she’d been in years. Then, pinned to the couch again with no reserves left to strategize, she discovered that willpower — the Terminator she’d taped in her diary as a girl, the armor she’d worn over every loss — had a ceiling. As she writes, “I simply couldn’t anymore.” What came after wasn’t another protocol. It was the first time in her adult life she stopped trying to fix herself and fell, instead, into something larger than her effort.

Be The Change

Identify one thing you have been carrying privately — a grief, a fear, a loss you moved past without moving through — and give it five minutes of unhurried attention today. Write it down, share it with someone you trust, or simply sit with it without trying to resolve it. Notice what the body does when it is finally allowed to acknowledge what it already knows. For more inspiration, join a live conversation with Cynthia this weekend!